SO…this is the post where I’m supposed to introduce myself and the purpose of my blog. But let’s be honest, most people will never read this post. Even if this blog somehow goes viral in the next year or so, nobody is going to come back to this post most likely. Plus, I always follow the rules and try to be perfect and the whole point of this blog is for me to step out and do something different. And the biggest reason for me to not follow the traditional route with this first post – quite frankly – it is BORING!!
If you don’t already know me then one of two things is going to happen. One, you will like my writing or at least find it interesting enough to come back to and in the process you will get to know me over time. OR you won’t find this worth your while to revisit (maybe I’ve already lost you and you are not even reading anymore). Honestly, if the latter is the case – do either of us really care if you ever get to know me? I think not!
With that being said – let’s just skip the introduction.
Now for the purpose of this blog. I could feed you a line about wanting to share my experiences with others in order to help them, and that would have a grain of truth to it. If this was to turn into something that helps and/or inspires others I would be absolutely thrilled. But the true purpose (at least right now in this moment) is that the purpose of this blog is for ME! Writing feeds my soul. It is a way for me to de-stress and express myself. It makes me feel alive and fulfilled. It make me feel whole!
I’ve lived my life as a perfectionist and a people pleaser – always considering how what I do or say affects others. Always worried that I might inconvenience someone or thinking about how others might take something that I say or do. I’ve lived my life making choices based on two criteria:
- I made choices based on what is best for others or based on what others may think about me. I took the safe route and did what was practical, responsible and reasonable in the minds of those around me.
- I’ve made choices to NOT do certain things based on fear. Fear of failure and even worse, fear of not being perfect.
That last part of the second item above is the worst. Being afraid of failure is one thing (and NOT a good excuse!), but not doing something because you can’t be perfect at it is just INSANE!!
I’m tired of being afraid. I’m tired of missing out on what could be amazing experiences. I want to really live and enjoy my life. I want to be an example for my kids to follow of how to live life to it’s fullest.
And I’ve come to realize that to do this I have to learn – really truly learn – it is okay to be imperfect. I need to identify, accept and embrace my imperfections. They are a part of what makes me ME! SO this blog’s purpose is to feed my soul and to chronicle my Journey to Imperfection. If you want to tag along – WELCOME!
Owning our story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing that we will ever do. — Brené Brown