6 Word Prompt – July 17th

Jo from A Creative PTSD Gal has created a 6 word story prompt for July which I am participating in. To see her original post with the full list for July – click HERE.

July 17th Word – Hands

My hubby has always joked that I have old woman hands – even when we were 17! Not the thing you really want to hear from your significant other – but he is kind of right. My hands have always had lines in them. But I’ve decided that is because they have always had so many stories to tell. Our hands have such amazing stories to tell – stories of compassion, creativity and sometimes even regret. What stories do your hands have to tell?

Self Compassion v. Life Paralysis

The more I dive into this journey, the more I realize just how appropriate is the name I’ve chosen for this blog.  Everything keeps coming back to me learning how to accept and embrace my imperfection.  Learning to accept, embrace and even love my true authentic self rather than  the person I think I am supposed to be.  Who I think I have to be to be accepted and loved by others.

I’m reading two books right now which I could swear were written just for me.  The first I mentioned in my last post.  The second is “The Gifts of Imperfection” by Brené Brown.  The subtitle of this book is “Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are”  (See what I mean!  I read the title and I knew I had to read this book!) Continue reading “Self Compassion v. Life Paralysis”

The Fear of Being You

What about this theory, the fear of not being enough, and the fear of being ‘too much’ are exactly the same fear.  the fear of being you.  @Nayyirah.Waheed

This came up in my Instagram feed today and really hit home with me.  “The fear of being you.”  Why do I fear being me and showing the real me to the world?

I am a performer.  Not a ‘get on a stage and put on a show’ performer.  I am a person who has lived my life with the core belief that  I have to perform or do something to be worthy of love and acceptance.  I have to perform to make myself worthy of other people’s time, attention and affection.

If you are also a performer, you know exactly how torturous this can be.  Just how much anxiety it creates in your life.  You are never sure if you’ve done enough to earn or deserve love and acceptance.  And you know that even if you have, it is temporary and you must continue to perform to keep that love and acceptance.  If you do start to feel some pride in your accomplishments you then worry about being ‘too much’.  Are you being obnoxious and arrogant?  Have you now lost the love and acceptance you’ve worked so hard to earn because you have made too big of a deal about your performance? Continue reading “The Fear of Being You”